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It's Not Mine Anymore

by Tara Kannangara

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I made this for you, it’s not mine anymore Cross my name off the card and open the box And tell me what you think is inside Cuz I made this for you, it’s not for me. I made her for you, I can’t give her my name You can dye her hair blonde and buy her new clothes The clothes she has are full of holes So please give her a name, and give her a home. I made her for you, I can’t say that she’s fair She’s got scars on her back, her face has one eye You see a vision I deny Put a crown on her head and give her a prize. I made this for you, I don’t know what I made I built all the parts, I can’t tell you how Please take these parts, please take them now And please give them a name, she won’t be afraid.
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Touched 05:23 video
Take my head in your hand and whisper tricks. You make me sick, you make me slick You make me crash on the floor Scorched the wooden boards. Find the believer in me Find the believer in me Can’t you see that I’ve been touched. I’m touched Light and colour Rush to me. Thick in the head and even with these clouded thoughts I see your point. I get it. Now I have convictions Now I have conniption When I think on you When I think on you. Make a believer out of me Make a believer out of me Can’t you see that I’ve been touched. I’m touched Light and colour Rush out of my body. I’m touched Light and colour Rush to me. I will follow you forever and you will follow me on I will follow you forever and you will follow me on I will follow you forever Follow me on.
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Produced by: Tara Kannangara and Nyles Spencer Recorded by: Nyles Spencer, Michael Fong Mixed by: Nyles Spencer Mastered by: Noah Mintz Lacquer Channel Composers – Tara Kannangara, Chris Pruden, Colin Story, Julian Anderson-Bowes, Mackenzie Longpre
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You can say the words, rehearse them loud Make a case for your name, for your grace on fire. Sounds from your mouth information chokes the air. Don’t make a sound if you want me. I’ll look into you, look into you Look until you look away Hook into you, hook into you Hook until you find the muscle. Look into you Look into you Look into you, look into you Look until you look away Hook into you, hook into you Hook until you find the muscle. Look into you Look into you Look into you, look into you Look until you look away Hook into you, hook into you Hook until you find the vessel Look into you Look at me Look into me, look into me Look until you see a way. Look into me, look into me Look until you find my heartbeat Look into me, look away. You can take the words, Reverse them wreck all the lines, kill the time Let the sound dissolve. Don’t make a sound if you want to look in me. Look into me to find the words.
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What It Is 04:06
I don’t know what happens in the dark. I’ll feel about the floor to find a start. All the dust and skin All sharps and softs Crack a sound and maybe I’ll begin To be. What is it, I feel it as what it is, I feel it now. What it is, I see you now. You are what it is What is it you want in me. What is it, I see you as what it is, I see you now. What it is, I hear you now. You are what it is What is it that shows in Shows out Shows in me. I don’t know what happens in the deep. Maybe I can find it in my sleep. And dream of what it is to me.
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The wretched desert takes its form The jackal proud and tight In search of you I feel my way Through slowest heaving night Whatever fear invents I swear it make no sense I reach out through the border fence Come down, come talk to me In the swirling curling storm of desire Unuttered words hold fast With reptile tongue, the lightning lashes Towers built to last Darkness creeps in like a thief And offers no relief Why are you shaking like a leaf? Come on, come talk to me. Won't you please come talk to me? Just like it used to be Come on, come talk to me I did not come to steal This is all so unreal Can you show me how you feel now? Come on come talk to me Come talk to me Come talk to me. The earthly power sucks shadowed milk From sleepy tears undone From nippled skin as smooth as silk The bugles blow as one You lie there with your eyes half closed Like there's no-one there at all There's a tension pulling on your face Come on, come talk to me. I can imagine the moment Breaking out through the silence All the things that we both might say And the heart, it will not be denied 'Til we're both on the same damn side All the barriers blown away. Won't you please come talk to me? Just like it used to be Come on, come talk to me I did not come to steal This all is so unreal Can you show me how you feel now? Now come on, come talk to me Come talk to me Come talk to me.
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Hold my hand and apply some pressure Don’t let go till my body turns blue I keep going to the same old places Let me wear your smile for awhile. Cuz you are what I want And you are what I got Wanna dance to the songs that I don’t know I know, I know that you’ll show me where to go, I know, I know. Wanna dance to the songs that I don’t know I know, I know that you’ll show me where to go, I know, wanna dance to the songs that I don’t know I know, I know that you’ll show me where to go, I know, I know.
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George 01:36
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You are complete George You are your own We do not belong together. You are complete George You all alone I am unfinished I am diminished With or without you. We do not belong together And we should have belonged together What made it so right together Is what made it all wrong. No one is you George There we agree But others will do George. No one is you and no one can be But no one is me George No one is me We do not belong together And we'll never belong You have a mission A mission to see Now I have one too George. And we should have belonged together I have to move on
10.
Ire 04:28
I know you well, I know your wayward magic I know when you touch me a pulse will travel through, My body is eager to burn up all its insides I’m not ready to burn you, so you will have to burn me. Throw sand in my face and make me tear and burn And turn my eyes to ash so I can learn Learn to see The ire and guile The ire and guile. I know when you touch me a pulse will travel through, My body’s not ready, so you will have throw… Sand in my face and make me tear and burn And turn my eyes to ash so I can throw Sand in my face and make me tear and burn And turn my eyes to ash so I can learn Learn to see The ire and guile The ire and guile.
11.
Love Song 05:54
I run a while everyday I sweat and breathe and gasp and cough I run a mile everyday So I can show you that I’m fast and strong And tomorrow I’ll run twice as long. I’ll run a mile everyday To show you that I’m brave enough To give up all my miles for you. I’ll give it up all my miles some day. I’m brave enough to take a thousand pictures of my face Of kith and kin and moments, that I partially recall I’ll hand you all my evidence, that shows my painted face Furrowed dimpled lined and drawn Screwed and pouted you can’t doubt I was brave enough To hold a thousand faces. I gave my heart a thousand times, I cut it from my chest And held it blindly in the open air. Friends and lovers took this knotted thing and made it theirs Made it theirs to braid and better Theirs to spoil and weather I gave my heart a thousand times To show you that I’m brave enough To cut it out in front of you… So I could hold the hands And kiss the lips Of someone who Who isn’t you You knew me when I thought nothing of you And now I have a thousand things that brought me closer to you. You’re all I dream about You’re all I dream about You’re all I dream about I’ll tell my friends that I am strong, tomorrow I’ll run twice as long.

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Synth-Pop/Jazz artist, Tara Kannangara's sophomore album, "It's Not Mine Anymore," explores girlhood/womanhood through her cinematic soundscapes, dreamlike textures and vintage storytelling.

JUNO-nominated artist, Tara Kannangara is a second-generation, Sri Lankan-Canadian force of nature, giving you music that is deeply personal, genre-bending and culture blending. All this, encompassed by wild trumpet melodies, searing guitar lines, lush synths, and piercing lyricism will make you turn your head and listen. Growing up in Chilliwack BC, Tara studied classical piano and voice from an early age but over the years secretly fostered an interest in Alternative, Pop, Jazz and improvised music. Even still, she decided to study classical trumpet and voice at the University of Victoria, but her love for making her own art led her to Toronto to pursue jazz and improvised music at the University of Toronto. After years of studying institutionalized art, Tara was compelled to break the veneer built around her experience of music-making. By writing about the realities or absurdities of white excellence, and the triumph of being an outsider, Tara will compel you to listen.

Tara has been featured on CBC's The Signal, The Sunday Edition and NPR Tiny Desk with Lido Pimienta. She also performed on Lido's Grammy nominated record, "Miss Colombia." Her work has been presented at major festivals across North America including The Montreal Jazz Festival, The Washington DC Jazz Festival and The Smithsonian. She is also a founding member of #thisisartschool, a coalition of artists championing equity in arts education.

She currently teaches at Humber College in Toronto, Canada

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released May 31, 2019

Produced by: Tara Kannangara and Nyles Spencer
Recorded by: Nyles Spencer, Michael Fong
Mixed by: Nyles Spencer
Mastered by: Noah Mintz Lacquer Channel

Composers – Tara Kannangara, Chris Pruden, Colin Story, Julian Anderson-Bowes, Mackenzie Longpre

Performed by Tara Kannangara, Chris Pruden, Colin Story, Julian Anderson-Bowes, Mackenzie Longpre, Evan Cartwright, Kira May

Track 6 composed by Peter Gabriel
Track 9 composed by Stephen Sondheim


This project was made possible with the support of FACTOR Canada, Canada Council for the Arts, Toronto Arts Council and the Ontario Arts Council.

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